Yes, it’s been one hell of a week. Laila has been off nursery (they closed for half term) so I have been a full time mum (which I have enjoyed actually). On Tuesday I called the hospital to find out how the little one was doing and was told she had been swabbed and the swabs came back as positive for MRSA. It’s not what I wanted to hear and panic set in but after asking a lot of questions, it seems it is not in her blood so she is fine. They are treating her eyes and nose and bathing her in special bath stuff to fix it. Laila and I had swabs done on Wednesday morning and I called today and our swabs are negative, so we are ok.

On Wednesday I had to go to the hospital to get my bloods done for the chemo on Thursday. Laila came with me and that tested all my patience and skill in parenting. She was as good as gold seeing as we were at the doctors at 8:30am then straight on to the hospital and we only left there after 2 (and she hadn't had lunch) She spent some time with her little sister and was brilliant stroking her and holding her bottle and patting her on her back, as well as giving her a few very tight hugs which had me stressed out but I think she will make a FANTASTIC big sister.

On Thursday I dropped Laila off with a friend while I went off to have my chemo. It was my 4th treatment and marked my halfway point in my chemo. It took 3 attempts to get a line into my arm/hand but at last the last of the red stuff entered my body. I felt a bit 'woozy' afterwards, not much energy but able to drive and fetch Laila. Fortunately Laith brought home 2 pizzas for dinner so that saved me doing any cooking.

Today I woke up shattered, not able to open my eyes or wrench myself up from the bed but Laith had to get to work so up I got (eventually). My cheeks were flushed and hot. It felt like I was sitting cm away from a very hot radiator. That lasted most of the day but eventually faded away. I think I might get into the garden tomorrow. I need to get a compost bin and some compost and then I can get some more flowers in and perhaps even a veg patch (although I know it’s late in the season to start a veg patch). At the moment, I’m feeling ok considering.