Its been a while since I last wrote. Since my last chemo I had 10 days of feeling rotten. Sore body both outside and in. Ulcers and sore fingers. I’m not looking forward to my next 3 sessions of the same drug. This is not a fairground ride I would like to stay on, thank you.

I have been feeling better for about a week now but have my next chemo this coming week so am just enjoying feeling normal for a while.

I have been thinking about what I want to do next year after all of this is over. I am finding this quite a positive experience. All my insecurities of not doing things that challenge me more than I am comfortable with are being tested and I am finding myself wanting the challenges. Its like I have wasted so much of my life not wanting to do things. Perhaps my new motto should be ‘a challenge a day keeps the cancer away’.

I am now also officially bald. There was so little hair left that I eventually asked Laith to just shave it off and its fantastic (if a little cold) I still wear my wig out in public and am getting used to it.

The girls are well. Laila has turned into a little girl all of a sudden. She is such fun to be with and is as bright as a button. Ruby is growing and is able to turn herself over now, casts and all. She had her immunizations last Monday and has been high maintenance ever since. I do feel sorry for her. She isn’t feeling well.

Laith is well. We are both tired due to waking at night to feed Ruby (and she can holler when she gets the chance). Other than that, he is working hard and not taking enough time out for himself so becomes stressed.

I will try and get those photos loaded soon and I await comments on my new look.