It’s been one hell of a day. Ruby and I went to the hospital for another dose of poison. They only make it up when I get there as it’s expensive and has a short shelf life, so we had to wait a while before we were called in. We arrived at 11:30.

It took a while once we were called in to get going but at least the line went in first time today which was a huge bonus (it usually takes 3 goes and its bloody sore. Its properly the worst part of getting the chemo and I had sleepless nights over the lines going in a few days ago.

The drip was going in quite nicely and I was engrossed in a conversation when all of a sudden I had a hot flush starting from my belly and ending up in my head. I started struggling to breath and felt nauseous and faint with my head rushing.
I was powerless to do anything, I couldn’t even speak. Fortunately the lady I was speaking to had the presence of mind to tell the nurses on duty. They stopped the drug and switched the fan on me until I felt better. Apparently it’s a fairly common reaction and the body’s way of telling me it doesn’t like the drug. They slowed the drip down and I tolerated the rest of the drug with no problems. Ruby and I left at 4pm eventually. I called Laith to come home and fetch Laila from nursery as I didn’t feel good about driving. I gave Ruby her milk, put her to sleep and went and sat outside in the fresh air for a while.

I am still flushed but feeling so much better. Hopefully the steroids won’t affect me too badly this time round. So after a tough old day, I’m about to head off to bed (after I have done the bottles and had my steroids and perhaps something sweet to eat…)

Thank you all for your comments. It so nice to hear from friends and from people who care. I’m sorry I have not been able to reply to e-mails and texts for a while. Perhaps I will spend a day next week catching up with people. Until then, good night all.